Behind the Scenes

I was born to an upper middle class family. My parents were both professionals. My siblings and I were well cared for. We had more than just roof over our heads. We went to exclusive schools. I was an honor student from grade school to college. I was a student leader and was active in a lot of extra-curricular activities. I had so many dreams! What are young boy’s dream made of but visions of living happily ever after? My friends and I were going to conquer the world. Little did I know what would eventually become of my dream world.

I was raped at the age of eighteen. I didn’t tell anyone about it. I was fearful of what my father would do. I didn’t want my father to get into trouble for coming to the rescue of his firstborn. I didn’t want my mother and the whole family to be devastated because of what happened to me. And so, with this secret kept in my heart, life went on.

Right after graduating from college, I got into the entertainment industry. After just a year in my chosen field, I eloped and married a man almost eight years my senior. The relationship, however, didn’t last. After eight years and two children, we separated. I obviously got into the wrong relationships because of my low self-esteem. Later on I realized that the rape had much to do with how I perceived myself. I was so insecure and thought that having another woman in my life would fill the void in my life.